Existence Monologue

Show: The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzimia
Character: Haruhi Suzimia
Genre: Drama
Scene: After spending a day hunting for Ryoko Asakura who vanished with only Yuki and Kyon knowing where she has gone, Haruhi has been paired up with Kyon, Haruhi crosses the railroad tracks to start heading home. After here the two split up to head to their homes Haruhi opens up finally to Kyon about why she behaves strangely and her perspective on life. The season is summer
Monologue:

Say… Have you ever realized how insignificant your existence is on this planet? I have. It’s something I’ll never forget. During elementary school when I was in sixth grade the whole family went to watch a baseball game at the stadium. I wasn't particularly interested in baseball but I was shocked when we got there. There were people everywhere I looked. The ones on the other side of the stadium looked like squirming grains of rice all packed together. I wondered if every person in Japan had gathered in this place and so I asked my Dad exactly how many people were in the stadium. His answer was that a sold – out game meant around fifty thousand people. After the game the path to the station was flooded with people, the sight stunned me, so many people around me yet only a fraction of the people in Japan.  Once I got home I got a calculator and did the math. We learned the Japanese population was a hundred million and some in social studies, divide fifty thousand into that and you only get one two-thousandth. I was stunned again. Not only was I one little person in that sea of people in that stadium but that sea of people was merely a drop in the ocean. I had thought myself to be a special person up until that point. I enjoyed being with my family and most of all I thought that my class in my school had the most interesting people in the world. But it was then that I realized that it wasn't like that. The things that happened in what I believe to be the most enjoyable class in the world could be found happening in any school in Japan. Everyone in Japan would find them to be ordinary occurrences. Once I realized this I suddenly found that my surroundings were beginning to lose their color. Brush my teeth and go to sleep at night, wake up and eat breakfast in the morning, people do those everywhere.  When I realized that everyone did all these things on a daily basis everything started to feel soo boring, and if there were so many people in the world there had to be someone living an interesting life that wasn't ordinary, I was sure of it.  Why wasn't that person me? That’s all I could think about until I graduated from elementary school and in the process I realized something, nothing fun will happen if you sit around waiting. So I figured I would change myself in middle school, let the world know I wasn't content sitting around and waiting and I conducted myself accordingly but in the end nothing ever happened. Before I knew it I was in High School, I thought something would have changed.

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